Friday, July 10, 2009

The Good, The Bad and The Hopeful

Based upon the title of this blog, here goes...the good most definitely out weighs the bad. Mom has been out of the hospital for over a month now...(HOORAY!!) and been off her oxygen for almost 2 weeks now. She has lost a lot of weight but is walking and talking (he he he) like a real champ. I can't even begin to express how absolutely moving it is to witness the transformation that is my mother. She went from being in the ICU for 42 days to be a medical miracle and living, breathing and walking on her own. When I saw her last weekend for the 4th of July I had to stop myself from crying every time she would stand up and do something, or have a normal conversation with anyone. By far the most touching moment had to be when my sister, brother-in-law and Geno finally arrived Friday afternoon and Geno went to LaLa (his name for mom), even though she couldn't lift him herself to hold him, the image of him in her arms will stay with me forever. How happy she was to finally hold him again was priceless.
Also good...Tommy and I have been together for over a year now. Officially my longest and happiest relationship. For our anniversary Tommy bought us tickets to go see Wicked in San Francisco. I loved every minute of it...Tommy says I looked like a kid in a candy shop. It was so much fun and I can't think of anyone else I would have wanted to experience that with.
So a little bad, I'm a college graduate and I still don't have a job and really no decent opportunities. Very frustrating, disappointing and aggravating but I'm trying to remember that everything happens for a reason and that this too shall pass. Tommy has been helping me search for jobs on-line the last couple of days and that's been great. Lately just the idea of searching on-line has been daunting and made me a bit depressed but I'm simply trying to remain positive and focused.
Hopeful...well I'm hopeful about my mom, the job situation and life in general. I really think that being around little kids reminds me of the joy and happiness that can be found in every aspect of life. Being with my nephew Geno reminded me that things as small as digging a hole, hearing you name called by a little one, or seeing a parade can be exciting new and precious moments.
To each and all of you...enjoy the little moments...